Empowerment Diaries hosted by Lita, Goddess of Growth
Empowerment Diaries hosted by 'Lita': Goddess of Growth & Transformational Life Coach
Where spiritual growth meets practical transformation.
Join me, Carleta 'Lita', as I share my journey from a life of struggle and self-doubt to becoming the Goddess of Growth. Through candid storytelling, life coaching tools, and spiritual insights, this podcast is your guide to breaking free from limiting beliefs, embracing your authentic self, and stepping into your power.
Each episode blends personal experiences, actionable strategies, and heartfelt conversations to help you navigate life’s challenges and unlock your full potential. Whether you’re seeking mental clarity, emotional freedom, or a deeper connection to your purpose, *The Empowerment Diaries* is here to light the way.
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Empowerment Diaries hosted by Lita, Goddess of Growth
Facing Down Exhaustion and Finding Peace
Exhaustion meets optimism in this raw, reflective episode where I explore the contradictions of reaching 50 and finding life less settled than I'd imagined. I dive deep into the complex dance between others' perceptions and our own truth, revealing how the criticism we receive often says more about the giver than ourselves.
Through personal stories of childhood labeling and family dynamics, I share how leaving home at 17 transformed my academic performance—even winning a national writing prize—proving that the boxes others place us in rarely define our true potential. You'll hear about my journey to create physical and emotional distance from negative influences, not as escape but as a path to authenticity.
The episode touches on financial struggles and health concerns while exploring the profound freedom that comes with self-knowledge and forgiveness. I reflect on the projection patterns where people accuse others of possessing the very traits they themselves embody, and how recognizing this can free us from taking others' judgments personally. Most powerfully, I share the realization that many who caused pain in my past are trapped in unhappiness of their own making.
Whether you're navigating difficult relationships, breaking free from others' expectations, or seeking your authentic voice, this episode offers comfort and perspective. Join me in embracing the truth that while none of us can do life alone, knowing yourself means no one can use your story as a weapon against you. What parts of your story have you been letting others write?
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It's Lita, goddess of Growth here, and in truth I am at a point of exhaustion, exhaustion. In a strange way, it's as if the top layer there is like optimism, and the ground level taps into the fact that there has been so many hours, so many days, months, full of years working to this time that we're in now, that I am in. Now I don't know how I made it this far. Some would say I've been through far worse. I say why? Now, at 50, I definitely expected my life to be more settled. Never expected at 50 to have to sit down to hear feedback on how I should be living my life. But you know, sometimes it's like that. It's almost like checking in with ourselves and in truth, a lot of what I heard did not resonate.
Speaker 1:I often find it unfortunate when getting guidance from others that others often do not consider there is a spiritual aspect to any given story. We give guidance and advice based on past experience and we are not in a position to see the whole. Some of us will use tools to find out more information about the time and the season, but others of us will look at trends and past habits and experiences to attempt to guide those in today, with all that's going on today, the method brings a state of madness often, and confusion. The fact is, it may not have worked for you, that does not necessarily mean it will not work for me, and the flip and reverse can be true too. Work for me, and the flip and reverse can be true too. Time and season Tapping into the time and the season, I am aware of key trends. Being aware of key trends doesn't always help us prepare for the small micro changes and events that happen in between those changes, because real life is going on all the time, regardless of the changes. That's going on holistically, environmentally, globally. That's affecting us all the way through. And until we have that vision, it's really difficult to guide another. And when you get an ear to listen, you often hear the advice is just a reflection of advice for ourselves.
Speaker 1:I am continually being reminded to listen not just to what is being said but what is not being said, and life has often shown me when anyone has ever had anything to say about me that's negative. One has ever had anything to say about me that's negative. I have often found that what I have been accused of is, and has been, things that the person who has accused me of has personally done. It's interesting. Yeah, it is interesting, even the ideas that people have about, let's say, others being stupid. It's not a term that I use in my terminology, mainly because, since I was a child, that was something that was very much impressed upon me from a very early age.
Speaker 1:I didn't walk as fast as my first sister we're, I suppose 11 months apart, as I've been told, she started walking before I did so taught me how to walk, and the interesting thing is that I find there are those walking on earth calling others stupid, that really have insecurities about their own personal intelligence, so they can spend a lifetime berating and putting down others, almost to mask their sense of inferiority, I suppose lack of education masking their despair. We learn as we age. Feedback is not always about us. To be fair, there was a bit of time towards the middle of last year they struggle always to go back, but it was a bit of time that I really had to question my own mental faculties, question if it was hormones or what was going on. It took me until just a few months ago probably two months ago, to understand what I was going through. There was a number of people going through. It's like being in my home this little cottage, a new build. Like being in my home this little cottage, a new build. The house is hot all the time. Now, for a couple of years I thought it was my hormones. I generally keep myself to myself, I'm inside most of the time and it was, I believe. Last year I met with a neighbour who had explained to me that the underfloor heating in all of these properties were not fitted well. So I have been here sweltering in the heat, believing that it was a hormonal issue. Mind you, there were times I looked at the thermostat on the wall and I could see clearly that the temperature was high, but initially I did think it was my hormones.
Speaker 1:It's all about the stories that we tell ourselves, what we accept to be true. When we're in a position to empower ourselves. It doesn't mean that crap doesn't happen. It really doesn't. It doesn't mean that we're going to be with people that express great love and care for us. It really doesn't. It means that we have less opportunities in life where we need to be exposed to certain behaviours and circumstances. Once we've learned our lesson, there's no more need to keep going through the salt in the wound again is there.
Speaker 1:I managed to have a conversation with my mother and I'll just give a snippet of it. We got to the conversation end of it where I had actually spent a lot of time listening and I had to ask the question you know, sounds as if, actually, you didn't actually ever like me and I heard a response there you go again. There you go again. And what we were getting was that there was always this idea that I had a poor me one, as we call it in Jamaica, poor me one attitude, so that, no, oh, woe is me. Anything that happened, I was actually the one that had the oh, woe is me. So I actually had to interject and say, well, no, I've let you talk, but this is what I understand. And then the response was well, you used to be really happy when I came to pick you up from nursery. So it dawned on me that her views of me as being a happy baby, I suppose going to nursery, somehow along that line. From that time something changed.
Speaker 1:It was a weird scenario to be talking about yourself in adulthood, to hear that actually almost like the best times I had with you. Remember, I'm 50, so the best times I had with you was when you were a baby and I used to pick you up from nursery. It's interesting, but I'm so grateful for the interaction and the experience, really, really grateful, because over the years I have heard many stories and I know that my mother has heard many stories as well. I've been told, but I have heard many stories which one would deny. But sometimes eventually the truth is told right. I also got to learn something fascinating, and I'm sure I was told as a child but my brain just dismissed it.
Speaker 1:There was a point I was going to a school that I really hated Lots of bullying there, I just really hated it. And my mother had been called to the school. I don't know why, but apparently she'd said that I was leaving school, I wasn't going back. So recently I heard that apparently she'd said that I was leaving school, I wasn't going back. So recently I heard that apparently she'd gone to see the headteacher and had told the headteacher that she was worried about me because my behaviour had changed and she thinks I'm being misled or influenced at the school and apparently the teacher had told her hold on, hold on, let me stop you there. It's your daughter that is the bad influence, but this feedback was supposed to cut me at the age of 50, but it didn't. It was quite interesting. So I am someone that would definitely tell anyone.
Speaker 1:School time was not my best time. For me, it was an escape from home. I really didn't enjoy school not Not the life of it, not the process of it, not the routine of it, none of it. I couldn't wait to leave home which I did at 17, and find a path on my own In that space. I didn't do well in exams. As soon as I left home, my grades improved. In fact, the very year that I left home, I actually won a national prize for writing a 500 word story. So I don't say it was smooth sailing after that, no, but then about two years later, I took myself to do my degree. So yeah, it's interesting.
Speaker 1:It's interesting actually how, as a child, you can be labelled and typecast. You have to have a strong mind so that, no matter what anyone says, you're able to tap into your essence and be. And I have noticed, when I am alone and in my own space, all these things that are said about me, just they really don't exist, they're not in my time and space. So I do really appreciate being in a little village, far, far, far away from everyone. The closeness is kept by communication via whatsapp and so actually here it's just me. It's freeing and I'm not running away, I can just be. So I do hope I will be able to turn my finances around. I do hope and pray that this Creator Network opportunity I've taken on is a real and genuine opportunity that I can make the best of and not just grow myself but assist others to grow also, because it really is definitely time for change and I know what it's like to have wounded people attempt to show love, care and concern.
Speaker 1:You know, from since I was a child, I got used to fake tears. Fake tears don't move me. I've had friends, natural actresses. Tears flow always. It's almost as if their emotions are more important than what the situation is. That's going on here.
Speaker 1:Many years ago, I believe I've said in a podcast before, I did a course called More to Life and that was really empowering. It allowed us to tap into our emotions, whether it be sadness, anger and really drill down to it. Use a hard space and really just drill onto it. It's. It's so empowering just to go on to the experience and just acknowledge it, rebuke it, reject it and then accept it, because in the end we're all human, you know, and it must be a hard burden to carry All the feelings of rejection, hurt and shame and not wanting to take responsibility for it at all.
Speaker 1:Life is a scary space and place, I think, think if everything that happens is because of somebody else, it's taken me a lifetime to acknowledge, when things happen, my own responsibility in any given situation. Not everybody is there, unfortunately, so they're giving themselves more nightmares as much as the hardships that I go through. And it's really just finances now and my health which I have let go due to worry. Generally I am okay, I know and believe financial movement being better. My life is okay, doing what I enjoy. My life is glorious Coaching, supporting, promoting, connecting, networking, networking.
Speaker 1:You know as much as I haven't been doing the podcast and I do say I have been lax because of all the things that's been going on in my personal world and oh yeah, we can make excuses, frustrations, blockages I do often try to look at where's the flow, because I understand where it's flowing is exactly where I'm going. If there is a block, let's not try that. So, starting my account on TikTok just to promote my podcast and after the three month trial in April, then blocking the account, not progressing with it, kind of took it as a sign that, ok, maybe I will slow down and focus on other things for a little while. But that wasn't the answer. The answer was to continue podcasting, but do not rely on just one platform to promote what it is I do. And lo and behold, I think it was a week or two ago now I received an email from a publisher asking if I could do an interview.
Speaker 1:Interviews were not something on the top of my agenda for this podcast, if I'm honest. If I'm honest, I had thought to encourage all my listeners to start tapping into their story, because the story is our life journey and it is what's going to determine how we live our lives, the peace within, and I'd envisioned that there'll be people here sharing their stories and tapping in and building community. Now I'm aware that there are others that also want to use stories for healing and they're doing different things. We've already spoken about journaling and I know the concept of writing to self or to another, even if they've passed away, can be very healing. Not one path is going to be suitable for everyone.
Speaker 1:We process things differently and I know even within myself I do get frustrated at times when things happen and I acknowledge that we're not even open to believing there's a bigger picture, and part of that is that we allow ourselves to get into groups where gossip, innuendo and wrong thinking is allowed to permeate through our daily lives and it's easy to separate yourself if you don't have the opportunity to get involved. But if your opportunities to get involved in that is happening every single day, it can be an effort to distance yourself whilst being loving to yourself and loving to others. I've grown. I've grown. It's interesting what can be used to weaponise relationships, relationships against each other. So, for example, I have siblings and I think from when we were children it was almost like we were played off against each other and I've often rebelled against it. You know, the family home prepares you for the world outside. Once you've had a family life, people outside don't surprise you, can't surprise you, but it's okay.
Speaker 1:Forgiveness forgiveness of self, acknowledging the wrongs that we have done, that I have done. That's where my healing lies. Forget everybody else. Everyone else is living in their own story. Do you know? For many years I thought I was living in a hell, but after I've done some work with myself and on myself, it's amazing that the aggressors from the past are living in hells of their own. It's like their lives are in a hell. They're not happy, they're not happy at all. So I continue to hope for another day. I am really working towards getting to a position where this life or survival changes, and I would love to be able to support people to progress.
Speaker 1:We need champions. I have had many champions in my life aunts, godparents, and so, even if they didn't necessarily believe in me, they had positive words. My greatest champion was definitely to my two younger aunts because they were able to see me, especially one in particular. She was able to see me from day one, since I was the age of two. I used to hear her telling my mother not to call me stupid. Always my protector, always my guide. Angels like that do not come in our lives often.
Speaker 1:First of all, you need to be willing to see. Forget the noise, forget what the gossip says, forget what he said, she said, you said, they said Cut through the noise. Yeah, in those kinds of environments you get to question who it is you can really trust. I've broken confidences, so even my aunt. I put her in danger at a point because I repeated what she told me in confidence to a friend who then went to repeat what I had told her. It is my life and it has been that way. So I have learned either to just be quiet or just be prepared to hear back what I've said, and both suit me when I'm speaking to others. Now I suppose, like this podcast, I'm quite prepared to hear it come back to me. That's what life has prepared me for. It is freeing.
Speaker 1:Once you know yourself. There's no weapon that anyone can use against you actually none. There will be some that will attempt to put shame, threats, regrets on you to prevent you from tapping into your power, your glory and taking help from others. Sometimes there is this presumed idea that because you've taken help, that you must accept anything that they give to you, as well as the help, because somehow you know there's this idea that you're not deserving of help. But do not be fooled. Help is there for all of us and we cannot do this life on our own, no matter what anyone tells us. And those that make it really they have had a lot of help, a lot of help.
Speaker 1:Well, thank you for listening to this reflection. I can hear phones going off in the background. Do tap in in. This is Lita, goddess of Growth. I'm going through change, as you can hear. We're coming towards the end of a chapter and I don't know what struggles I need to go over, what hills, which valleys, to get fully over to the next chapter, but I can only do what I'm here to do. Thank you for listening.